transition?

Salam wbt..

After nearly one year came back to my beloved country, i sometimes loss the spirit and find it's hard for me to sustain the izzah and the himmah.

Sometimes i think that, UK is too ideal for my dakwah. As mesia is the real challenge that i have to really work hard and struggle to even grasp the air of it, just for the air, not indulge into it. Astaghfirullah..

I sometimes think that it is hard to mingle with human around me. To please them, or at least make myself be accompanied with someone. I dont want to be alone. I realise that as we tried and tried to please others but not the One, we will someday lose them and they will slowly walk away from us. The same as we tried to catch the world not the akhirat.

it is easy to write this down. i want to fix the things up. One of the biggest problem for now is the laziness. I am happy and so highly spirit when i do my office work but when i think about my deen, the laziness plays the role. As consequence, i left my quran and my hadith behind. Did not even look and understand them.

Every thing happen because of this little not so tiny thing which is the heart. When your heart fill in with bad things, it will become much darker and darker, up until one point, the light could not goes in and you just feel ease with it. Not feeling guilty, not feeling anything and (may Allah lead me far from this) and you enjoy doing the bad. You not even realise that it is sinful. You did not even bother to check with your guidelines whether it is permissible or not.

Astaghfirullah.. Please Allah make me strong with my own stand and really strong with it. Storm or turbulence will not stop me from continued to stand still and to be me.. not tried to pretend just for the sake of others.

kehilangan

Bismillah.

Sedey hari ini rasanya...
Perasaan kehilangan seorang guru yang tiada banding nya..

Semoga Allah permudahkan segala urusannya dan menguatkan dirinya untuk
menghadapi ujian yang Allah berikan itu..

Syafakallah..

Hope to see you again in the future as a healthy teacher.. insyaAllah

ikatan ukhuwah itu indah

Bismillah

Seusai subuh, ak teringatkan adik2 ak yang comel nun jauh di uk sana..
Subhanallah..

I am truly missing them...
Semalam kami berbalas- balas mesej..:)..Senyum hati dan bibirkan ku mengingatkan mereka..
Mereka lah insan- insan yang dulu dan skang bertautan hati kerana Allah..

Kerana ikatan ukhuwah itu juga kami masih lagi berhubung sehingga sekarang walaupun sudah lama saya tidak menghubungi mereka..
Subhanallah2x.. To Allah i am giving the thankfulness..

InsyaAllah akan terus berusaha di sini untuk menjalinkan ukhuwah itu kerana Allah..
nahnu du'at qabla kulli syai'...

Saya mohon pada yang Esa semoga saya teruskan bekerja di jalan ini..9:41.
sehinggalah Dia menjemput saya pergi.

One of my favourite video:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oUF4pXzJo40

-tidak kenal akan erti penat dan lelah dan sayang kan duitan dan diri sendiri-